You are not the first to go through the things you are going through. To face what you are facing. The Lord has written in his word his heart, and his words for you. He is there for you. He knows your heart, He is here to comfort you. You are his beloved and he is yours.

You go through what you do for his Kingdom, to be there for his children.
Mark 14:38, Matthew 22:37, Luke 8:50