His arms are where I belong. I belong to Jesus.
<3
I'm sitting here, in the glory with Papa's arms wrapped around me. Feeling completely spoiled. But what can I say? I'm a daughter of the King of Kings, I'm His little Princess. I don't have to prove myself, I'm Daddy's little girl. That's just all there is to it.
"Oh How He Loves"
As I was sitting here on my couch just thinking, praying, & worshiping, I flashed back to this moment when I remember completely being swept away by the Father's heart for me. I remember how it felt, the aching in my chest as I cried out for Him & His unfailing love. I remember that I was literally on my face, bawling my eyes out. I knew that I was no where worthy of His love, His presence; Him. But still, He looked at me & He put his hand on my shoulder, telling me that He loved me, more than my own comprehension of what love really was. I stayed there, crying, feeling completely engulfed in him. I remember that moment better than any other I'm sure. All because that was an encounter that changed my life. At the time I was broken, I was confused, & all because I was a fighter, fighting for something I didn't realize Dad was holding as I was pulling it away. Yes, I was playing tugawar with God. I thought I knew what was good for me, what I wanted, what I was doing--I was wrong, completely. & in that moment, that encounter, I finally let go & just as I let go of the rope, I felt myself fall on my butt. Feeling completely idiotic for holding onto something that now looks so unappealing, frivolous, stupid, & just wrong. As I sat there, Dad just kept telling me there was so much more. He kept saying that I was worth more, that He had more. & ever since, I've been going after it.
And I don't plan on ever forgetting this divine romance that He gave me so long ago. My heart is set on going deeper.
May
Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 8, 2011
I'll Be Home For Christmas.
That sentence just makes me sigh.
For a few reasons. I'm excited, I get to see my sisters, my grandma, Heather Brynn, Katie, Azriel, baby Chloe, fiancee-Philip, Hun-Baby Loida, Siah, Geri, Mama Parker, and my mom and dad. My heart feels like it's already there, and yet, I feel so far away from my little hometown--Vallejo, Ca. Oh dear. This past week has been my two week process and preparation to get ready to go home and persevere to the promise that my family will fall in love with the Lord. That my parents will understand what the heck I'm doing all the way over here in Redding, Ca. My heart is one hundred and twenty percent for what Papa God wants to do on this trip, but I know that I have to be ready for anything. I know that I have to be on point; of course be myself and let love win that way. But also just remain connected to His heart and know at all times what is going on. I'm so ready to be home with Philip by my side. I love him so much, and I've definitely missed him. It was funny last night we talked about how I felt Holy Spirit give me visions and strategic things to do when I get home and just be able to love, bless, and pour out on every one there.
Yesterday Philip and I started our negativity fast. We don't even know how long we're supposed to do this, but we are until Dad says we're done. I think it's good, because we both want to remain in the state of thankfulness, because Dad has blessed us both so much and we're in such a new season and we just wanna stay obedient, thankful, and in a place of peace, love, and joy. :) so here we go. Not only that, but we're gonna start soaking together! Way excited!
Overflow, overflow, overflow. Everything that is poured out of us should first come from being saturated in Father's heart before attempting to give to others. We have to receive from the Father. It cannot just be a small portion that only sustains us, otherwise we will only exhaust ourselves spiritually, physically, and emotionally. When we pour out the fire, passion, love, peace, joy, righteousness of Dad we have to make sure that it's all out the overflow. Philip and I have both been learning this. The crazy thing is that lately we've been really on point together and apart. Holy Spirit is just so good. It's true the more that you spend with the Father, the more you look, act, and sound like Him. We're seeing the fruit of our time in the secret place with Dad, and we're so thankful and excited about what He's doing.
I'm just in such a place of pure thankfulness and joyfulness. I feel the Holy Spirit doing such a work in me, as well as Philip. Thank you Papa for all that you have for he and I. You are so good. I am such a thankful daughter.
"Everything good comes from you, Father of lights"
May<3 <3
For a few reasons. I'm excited, I get to see my sisters, my grandma, Heather Brynn, Katie, Azriel, baby Chloe, fiancee-Philip, Hun-Baby Loida, Siah, Geri, Mama Parker, and my mom and dad. My heart feels like it's already there, and yet, I feel so far away from my little hometown--Vallejo, Ca. Oh dear. This past week has been my two week process and preparation to get ready to go home and persevere to the promise that my family will fall in love with the Lord. That my parents will understand what the heck I'm doing all the way over here in Redding, Ca. My heart is one hundred and twenty percent for what Papa God wants to do on this trip, but I know that I have to be ready for anything. I know that I have to be on point; of course be myself and let love win that way. But also just remain connected to His heart and know at all times what is going on. I'm so ready to be home with Philip by my side. I love him so much, and I've definitely missed him. It was funny last night we talked about how I felt Holy Spirit give me visions and strategic things to do when I get home and just be able to love, bless, and pour out on every one there.
Yesterday Philip and I started our negativity fast. We don't even know how long we're supposed to do this, but we are until Dad says we're done. I think it's good, because we both want to remain in the state of thankfulness, because Dad has blessed us both so much and we're in such a new season and we just wanna stay obedient, thankful, and in a place of peace, love, and joy. :) so here we go. Not only that, but we're gonna start soaking together! Way excited!
Overflow, overflow, overflow. Everything that is poured out of us should first come from being saturated in Father's heart before attempting to give to others. We have to receive from the Father. It cannot just be a small portion that only sustains us, otherwise we will only exhaust ourselves spiritually, physically, and emotionally. When we pour out the fire, passion, love, peace, joy, righteousness of Dad we have to make sure that it's all out the overflow. Philip and I have both been learning this. The crazy thing is that lately we've been really on point together and apart. Holy Spirit is just so good. It's true the more that you spend with the Father, the more you look, act, and sound like Him. We're seeing the fruit of our time in the secret place with Dad, and we're so thankful and excited about what He's doing.
I'm just in such a place of pure thankfulness and joyfulness. I feel the Holy Spirit doing such a work in me, as well as Philip. Thank you Papa for all that you have for he and I. You are so good. I am such a thankful daughter.
"Everything good comes from you, Father of lights"
May<3 <3
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